In bending for courtesy
My giant values take hold
A freedom beaming compassion
However selfish it may become.
In the darkness my lover is everywhere
In the light she warms up my bones.
In Autumn she is heart
In spring, she evolves along with the gods.
To cry for her is soothing
I get to have her in my life enough
To spill tears over – makes me feel worthy,
Of all that I am and everything I am becoming.
This is what it feels like.
Cold back and a blood boiling over
A Breath struggling from spilling
An insanity threatening this dull world
A crack of pure darkness in the light
An Elio to an Oliver.
A cycle that repeats itself over and over
A gentle, warming and devastating love
At times we played Tekken with our hearts.
Even in embracing another
Her smile offers itself to remind me where home is.
To remind me it’s beautiful to exist apart yet still WANT to love this human… to not even need to choose.
To know she loves me fully
And for her to know I understand.